getting built up

i always thought like this: we go through tough times, but it's worth it. just like lifting weights - it hurts a little for a while, and then you're stronger.

today, this idea got enhanced:

sometimes life is just ALL sore. ALWAYS sore. at times a little more sore, at others a little less sore, but always sore.

it's not just a bad life.

it means i'm ALWAYS getting stronger and built up. my character is ALWAYS growing compared to before when my character would only SOMETIMES grow ("hurts a little for a while, and then you're stronger").

so when it's feeling rough ALL THE TIME, it's better. it means i'm being perfected all the time and not just some of the time.

i hear bad news. my first thought (unfiltered) "god damnit. why does this happen.."
then, i put on my happy face because it's supposed to be a good thing. unfortunately, it's a good thing that hurts a lot in the process.

and im still sad from that. but its just a reminder that when life always hurts, it means i'm always getting built up.

...when life always hurts, it means i'm always getting built up